Time check: 12:34AM.
I know. I know. I should be sleeping (which has been my staple rant again) but for some randomness, my brother went home this late. I have been occupying his bed for days and since his 'pag-uwi' is unexpected, I am not in the mood to fix my own bed (which, btw, is filled with worn clothes and books). HAHAHA. So to waste time until someone in my household wake up and leave, I might as well make use of my nagging imagination and start playing with words.
While I was intensely studying today, I had some aftermath thoughts of why do I want to become a lawyer. Considering the remorseful life before and after, why do I still choose to enter this realm which I don't even have any idea whether or not I'll be happy. Just for the record, lawyer-ing is not really my 'thing'. I was misplaced by my mom in a battle field and somehow Chassé through it.
When I was young, I wanted to become a journalist. My peg in life is Jessica Soho and I envisioned myself interviewing famous personalities. Since I'm an obvious talker, I thought intriguing people will be my forte. So both grade school and high school, I became a part of the school paper. However, I came to terms that I am the laziest person in the planet. I can't even be disciplined now. I realized that journalism is an entirely new space where you need to maximize time and effort. You won't have control over it because you will run after the news. Thus, I shifted my mindset and erased it-- still can't erase my love for writing as shown now.
After a while, I wanted to become a Marine Biologist. My love for Science, Animals and Swimming transverse in this arena. My mom is a graduate of BS Biology and took Marine Biology as Masters. I remember when I was young, mother goose would tag me along whenever she goes to some deserted beach. There I will see her collect some specimens like sea cucumber, sea urchins, and some other salty stuffs. It fascinates me how life exist in a place where we can't barely see. So for years, I always cry the study of Marine Bio. However, studying science is expensive. When I say expensive, I mean EXPENSIVE (all caps para intense). It also made me think of what I will do after school. What work will it give me. blah blah blah. What drama it was that I turned back to science.
And then I wanted Fine Arts. For those who do not know, I USED to paint. Yes. Used as an operative word. As mentioned in my previous post, I was once a student of Fernando Sena and was able to gather recommendation for few crafts. However, I took that whatever-talent for granted. Now, kinalawang na ako. Frustrating! When I had the urge to salvage whatever I can, my dad dismayed the idea. He said that its more of skills and talents, not profession. Ranting how one can be a good artist without a diploma-- hence, it would be impractical to enroll it. Thus, I was led to consider other course instead.
Also, I dreamed of becoming an Archaeologist. Okey fine! Blame Brendan Fraser and The Mummy Trilogy. I love old things. I love history. I love mythology. I love Egypt. I have always proclaimed that I am a reincarnation of some Egyptian Princess. That I have servants feeding me berries and preparing my milk bath. HAHAHA! But as much as that profession suits me, I don't know any school here in the Philippines that offers it. In case I want to pursue Archaeology, I have to be pretty rich to afford education in UK- Oxford University. That is the only school I know which caters THE Dusting-course.
Then there's Linguistic. I was supposed to study in State University (hulaan nyo lang kung ano) with that such course. However, I only took the exam to prove myself that I can pass it. By the time I received the result, I decided to back-out. Yeah! I was once a bad-a** daughter and to send my point to my parents, I resort by turning my back to a state university. But, nevertheless, I really want to be multi-lingual and I am still considering further studies after law school. I actually got this idea after watching a movie (which I could no longer remember) that tackles about Interpreters in United Nation. I thought... "the coolest job ever!!!" So there.. I want to be Multi-Lingual. HAHAHAHA! I'm thinking of studying French or Spanish in the future. Thinking... thinking... thinking... Can't wait to explore tongue twist soon.
So how did I end up being in law school? Let's start on my enrollment in University of the East-Manila. I was with my mom and still undecided of what I will take. Since my mom basically controls my life back then, she told me to enroll Legal Management. Why Legal Management? I have no effin idea. HAHAHAHA! She said its a better preparatory course for Law and compared to Political Science, it will trigger curiosity. Para bang...
Q1. Anong course mo?
Ans 1. Political Science
Q1. Ah okey. (end conversation)
compared to...
Q2. Anong course mo?
Ans. Legal Management.
Q2. Oh bago yung ha. Ngayon ko lang narinig... anong ginagawa dun? (start conversation)
HAHAHAHA. So due to my sobrang good-daughter-peg (making up for what I did with state U), I ended up taking LegMa and somehow finishing it. HAHAHA! With all honesty, I can't even remember my subjects back then-- neither are my professors. I was so preoccupied with varsity that I was not fully utilized as a student. But somehow, I managed to graduate without any failing grades. I guess that deserves a hep hep hoooraaay for me!
After college, I initially worked for a real estate company. In less than a year, I discovered the BPO industry and decided to move there. When I was already hired as a regular employee, my mom talked me to further pursue my degree to Law proper. I had no other plans in my life then so I gave in. The rest they say is history.
Now that I am done with Law School, and making my way half through, I came to contemplation of why I really REALLY want to become a lawyer. Compared to friends and co-barristers, I don't have any plans once I receive the grand DOT in my title. Perhaps that is the reason why I am not as diligent compared to others. When I was in law school, I want to pass my subjects not because of aiming to take the bar, but more of to prove myself that I can. I never thought I'll make it through. It was just adrenaline rush to me whenever I go to school-- prepared or not. But to have the mindset that this is for the bar, less than two months, I still don't know what I'm doing. Nevertheless, I am doing it.
I still want to say so many things about my dilemma, or not, of being a lawyer. But as for now, I need to re-align again my thoughts to a more cohesive topic. Ang daldal ko! Humaba ng ganito ang random word vomit ko. HAHAHAHA!
Love lots,
Katerina Bianca
